Never Enough

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​Sitting curled up in my chair one morning, Bible open and tears streaming, I felt an overwhelming sense that I did not have what it took to parent our three teens. I felt trapped in a place where my task felt immense and the importance of it overwhelmed me. Band-aids, popsicles and quick hugs didn’t solve teen sized problems. As I sat in my favorite space, I quietly whispered “I’m not enough.” He gently answered, “You are not enough and were never meant to be.”
 
In Exodus 3 and 4, Moses encountered a different problem but the same fear. Minding his own business in the desert, doing what he had done for years, Moses was stunned to suddenly see a bush burning.

When he approached, God spoke to Moses and told him He had chosen him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt. Moses was not exactly excited about the idea. He immediately was aware of his lack of qualifications and asked “Who am I?” in Exodus 3:11. He knew he did not have what it would take to lead thousands of people out of the grip of an evil Pharaoh and into freedom. He was not enough and he knew it, but God was not asking him to do it alone.
 
God did not answer Moses’ fear with assurances that he did indeed have what it would take to do the impossible task. He did not even tell Moses how amazing he was or that he was made for the moment. God’s plan did not rest on Moses’ ability to lead the mass exodus. His response in Exodus 3:12 was, “I will certainly be with you…” That’s enough, but Moses still was not convinced. In Exodus 4:10, Moses reminds God that speaking was not something he was good at. That didn’t deter God either. God reminded Moses in 4:11 that He was the One who had created Moses’ mouth, would give him the words to say and would teach him along the way. God is not concerned with our ability, but with our obedience. The question is not, ‘Who am I?’ but rather ‘Who is He?’
 
The loud voices in our culture bombard us with messages that we are enough, but the problem is, we know deep down we actually are not. We try hard and succeed in one thing only to fail at another. When I sat in my chair that early morning, relief flooded my mind as I realized ‘enough’ is an unattainable and an always moving goal.
 
Thankfully, God has never asked us to be enough. He has asked us to do life with Him instead. He IS enough and always will be. He has all we need in any situation we face. He readily gives wisdom to all who ask and loves to respond when we call. The truth is, we are not left to do life on our own but are invited into a life WITH Him. When we are at a loss, He never is. He is an endless supply of wisdom, grace and all we could ever need. He is the only one who truly knows every part of every situation. He knows the past, present and future. He has invited us to ask Him for wisdom when we don’t have it. We are not enough, and that is okay because He is.

Memory Verse: “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” James 1:5 NIV

About the Author

Hi! My name is Wendy Gerdes and I currently live in Omaha, NE. I was born and raised in here. Except for seven years living in Florida, I have lived in Omaha my entire life. My husband John and I have been married for 21 years and have three boys and one girl ranging in age from 13 to 20. I am passionate about motherhood and love the creative work of partnering with God to help our kids develop into who He designed them to be! In my free time, I love to write, read and see friends. Dates with my husband and time with family are other favorite pastimes. I am most passionate about learning and writing about God's heart for us because when we see His heart for us, it truly changes everything! Connect with Wendy at www.wendygerdes.wordpress.com

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