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3/28/2021 0 Comments

In the Wait (Week 29)

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​Over this past week I have read many blog posts and Instagram comments that have referred to Foster Care as a journey of restoration.  Initially, I didn’t feel that this was an accurate statement.  Foster Care exists because of severe brokenness.  Parents and children alike are scarred from the trauma of being separated from their family.  They struggle to work through the steps of their case plan, and battle to hold onto what is left of their family unit.
 
Our current placement has been with us 19 months.  That is almost two years I have been their Mama LaLa… almost two years I have waited and wondered how this is all going to end.
 
Foster Care may exist because of brokenness, but its intent is restoration. The purpose is to protect children while their parents have time to make lasting positive changes.
​The frustrating truth about restoration is this: it takes time. I have begged God for an answer, willing to know when?  But, today there isn’t an end in sight. 
 
The book of Nehemiah is a celebration of restoration.  It depicts the beginning of the Jews’ return to their land after years spent in exile, and the process of rebuilding the wall of Jerusalem. They spent years in captivity in Babylon, years of wondering if God was still working,  years of asking God, how and when? After decades of displacement, they were finally granted freedom. But their city back home was still destroyed, there was still no end in sight for their full restoration.
 
Despite being in the messy middle, we see the Israelites celebrate. Nehemiah shares that they worshipped the Lord for almost an entire month, praising Him for His provisions. Even when the work wasn’t finished, they acknowledged the restoration already happening. They thanked God for their deliverance, and trusted Him with what still needed to happen.
 
The walls of Jerusalem were rebuilt; the city was restored to its former beauty. The Lord kept his promises; our God is a God of miracles. He can bring restoration to even the most broken of stories. Yes, even yours.
 
What is broken in your life that you are trusting God to restore? A wandering child? Your marriage? Your finances? A friendship? Your emotions?
 
I don’t know how or when our current placement will end, but I trust the Restorer who alone breathes new life into every situation.
 
When your journey has brought you into the deepest, darkest parts of the woods, know that you are not alone. Jesus is moving. Begin to thank Him, like the Israelites, for His deliverance and restoration. Trust Him with the long road ahead. Trust that His timeline hasn’t stopped just because you feel like yours has.
 
You may not see it yet, but He will make all things new in His time. He alone can breathe new life into the wandering, the waiting, and redeem our darkest moments all for His glory.
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About the Author

Hello! My name is Laura Pendley. I am a wife, foster mama, and Special Education teacher. Writer has served as an incredible outlet for me through the years as we have walked through infertility and into foster care. Our journey hasn't been easy, but the Lord has used it to grow us in ways we never thought possible. I am passionate about foster care and providing resources and support for children and families in need. I hope through sharing my own experiences, I can encourage other women to lean into Jesus and trust in His perfect plan for their life.

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12/20/2020 2 Comments

Silent Grief (Week 15)

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​​Have you ever experienced hidden grief? The kind that sits deep in the pit of your stomach and gnaws away at you little by little? The kind that brings you to your knees?
 
I have silently grieved the ever-so-elusive positive pregnancy test. I have smiled, celebrating friends giving birth, while my own womb remains barren. I have spent nights weeping and bargaining with the Lord; at times, angry with His withholding of my deepest desire. 
 
When the Lord granted my desires and I became an overnight mother to four foster children, I grieved for their loss. I felt their pain while I celebrated my own gain. 
It’s been two years since, and now I sit and silently grieve the unknown of their future. Selfishly, I grieve my own potential loss— the loss of no longer getting to be their mother. But I also  grieve for the uncertainty of their safety, and for the cruelty of this world broken by sin. I have found myself back in that familiar dark corner of my faith, bargaining with God again.
 
I have questioned His goodness, and even His faithfulness. Lord, why are you hiding yourself? Where are you in this mess - in my grief and anguish? 
 
Are there areas in your life that you find yourself sitting in silent grief? Are you waiting for the Lord to show Himself to you, to unveil the beauty in His plan?   
 
I have related to the story of Hannah. Hannah endured infertility for years, to the point of being chastised by her husband’s other wife, Peninnah, for her barren womb. Despite her husband's great love for her, Hannah felt alone in her torment. She suffered through torturous, suffocating grief.
 
1 Samuel 10 tells us that, “in her deep anguish, Hannah prayed to the Lord weeping bitterly.” As Eli, the priest, looks on, she begs the Lord to look upon His “servant’s misery” (vs. 11). She promises if He’ll grant her a son, she’ll return him back unto the Lord, to serve Him in the temple.
 
The Lord eventually granted Hannah a son and she named him Samuel. After years of deep grief and anguish, Hannah had finally become pregnant— the Lord fulfilled her deepest desire. After nursing and weaning him, Hannah made good on her promise. She gave Samuel back to the Lord as an offering for His faithfulness.
 
And I would imagine that Hannah grieved. 
 
Sometimes, I think that everything should work out in my favor since I have struggled to get to this place, as a mother. Somehow I feel like I am owed something for my years of suffering, but if I allow myself to get wrapped up in that mindset, I miss the bigger picture of what the Lord is doing.  
 
Hannah could have felt entitled to keep Samuel for her own. After all those years of prayer, didn’t she deserve her happily ever after? If you read the rest of the story, however, the Lord went on to use Samuel to do incredible things for Israel. Hannah’s journey- the joy andthe grief- was not in vain!
 
Life is full of heartbreak. Some sorrow is apparent, while other sorrow lies silently under the surface. In a world that is broken by sin, no one gets out unscathed. We can find hope in Hannah’s story— the Lord can use your angst for His glory. He is faithful to sustain us in our deepest seasons of bitter anguish. Jesus will use our trials and our pain, to mold us and use us for His purpose.
 
When grief overcomes you with its heavy waves, focus your eyes on Jesus. We can’t control every aspect of our lives, but we can trust in the One who can. He orchestrates every part of our lives for His good plans.
 

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About the Author

Hello! My name is Laura Pendley. I am a wife, foster mama, and Special Education teacher. Writer has served as an incredible outlet for me through the years as we have walked through infertility and into foster care. Our journey hasn't been easy, but the Lord has used it to grow us in ways we never thought possible. I am passionate about foster care and providing resources and support for children and families in need. I hope through sharing my own experiences, I can encourage other women to lean into Jesus and trust in His perfect plan for their life.

Follow Laura at her blog at www.pursuingus.com

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