A few years ago, I transitioned from bedside nursing to the field of Information Technology. I love what I do now but there are still days when I desperately long for the sterile smell of the hospital environment and the adrenaline that coursed through my veins. I loved everything about critical care nursing.
I loved the challenging assignments. I loved the patients and families who I cared for in the most vulnerable time of their lives but at the end of the day, I was tired. And as if the job wasn’t challenging enough, I attended school full-time and homeschooled both our son and oldest daughter while I cared for my non-residential ill father.
It wasn’t long before I was drained emotionally, physically, and spiritually, and not much longer before I was anxious, moody, and short tempered. I wanted to be a spiritual mentor in our family, but it felt like my very life was being sucked out of me, and I didn’t have any more to give. It was in those moments of despair when I had emptied myself of the harried activity of life, and then as a last resort,
I called to Him…
Sometimes behind half masked eyes due to my exhaustion,
Sometimes underneath mumbled prayers due to my distraction,
And often between my engagements on my perfectly organized agenda
He reminded me of His rest:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matt 11:28-29
Even now, these verses can’t help but strike a chord in me as I still occasionally can feel buried under the burden of the responsibilities of life if I don’t lean into His presence. In the prose of His carefully spoken word, I can hear the echoing of the Holy Spirit as He gently calls out to that part of my soul saying, “rest.” As the words wash over me, I am reminded once again that it is in unbridled restful worship that the perfect intimacy with the Holy Spirit lays and it is from that unity that I receive His peace, and joy, and patience. In Him I can receive all that I need if I only lean into His presence.
It amazes me how a few words penned a few thousand years ago, can still tug and pull my spirit strings until I am prostrate before him, humbled by His Grace and in awe of His love for me.
Today, stop and take a moment to let the presence of the Holy Spirit wash over you and remember that it is not our feverish activity for Him or for your children that He desires but our rest in Him. Let us not be so overcome with doing for our families and others that we forget that we are invited into the presence of the one true King who has offered to carry our burdens and renew our souls.
Word of the day:
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29
Father, I come before you burdened from life and exhausted from my activity. Please forgive me of my willful desire to act on my own. I come now asking that you invite me into restful worship that I may experience true unity with your spirit in whom everything I need lives. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.
Author: Kandice Adams