My twenty-year-old daughter is currently in El Salvador on a nine month mission trip. Watching her grow spiritually over the last year has been such a blessing to my life. I love that she has come to a place where she can pour wisdom into my walk as much as I hope I pour into hers.
A few weeks ago, during our bi-weekly Skype call, I heard tears in her voice, and I could tell that she needed a “mommy hug.” This does not happen often with Ravyn. She is so much more even-keeled than I am. I cry during Publix commercials, but her tears don’t flow but maybe once a year-- if at all. When I asked her what was wrong, she said everything was right.
Ravyn had been seeking God about a very important decision, and He had answered her. He was telling her to take the internship in El Salvador, which meant that instead of being a student, she would mentor other students on the mission field.
I didn’t immediately understand her reaction or dilemma. She had sought God, and in several different ways, He had very clearly responded.
She then went on to share that she was afraid that she had nothing to contribute. She had no real skills and though she had intentions of completing school once she returned to the United States, she had only finished her second year of college. She felt had nothing to give.
Isn’t this something that each of us battle with at one time or another?
I know that it is a constant battle for me. I ask for the opportunity to share Christ with others, but when He provides the platform, I begin to spiritually sink under the waves of fear that overcome me because I feel I have nothing to contribute that He needs.
But it’s at these times that I can hear the Spirit chanting, “just keep swimming.”
So I told her that when she begins to doubt her usefulness; when she begins to doubt the calling on her life; and when she feels overwhelmed-- to keep her eyes on Him and just keep swimming.
Our father does not require amazing talent or our fancy degrees because, in the light of His extravagant grace, they mean nothing,while a willing, obedient heart means everything.
Whether it is speaking to many, or speaking to a few; whether it is sharing Christ with your children, or sharing Christ in a foreign nation-- If you have been overcome by waves of fear, allow these words to calm your soul: God needs only your trust and obedience. Sweet friends, take comfort today in knowing that whatever He has asked you to it is He who will supernaturally equip you, and provide for your mission.
Word of the Day:
"‘You’re my servant, serving on my side. I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you. Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear, for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you." Isaiah 41: 9-10 Msg
Lord, I desperately want to be used by you, but sometimes when you provide opportunities, I am overcome by the waves of fear. Father, in those moments please remind me to keep my eyes on you, and please tell me to just keep swimming, In Jesus’s name, Amen.
Author: Kandice Adams