By Brooke Kireta
There is a story in John, Chapter 21, about the disciples fishing. They had been out all night and had caught nothing. Jesus came in the morning and called to them from the shore and told them to throw their nets out one more time.
You know they had to be thinking, Are you kidding?! We have been out here all night! We are tired and this is pointless! But they did it anyway.
Sometimes we are tired and it seems pointless to hold onto hope - but do it anyway.
The story goes on to tell us that when they did what Jesus said they could not pull the net in because it was filled with so many fish! I don't know why Jesus waited until morning to appear.
I don't know why all night as they prayed and fished and hoped and fished and watched other boats all around them catching fish that He didn't send the fish into their nets.
But I know when He told them to do it in spite of their frustration and hopelessness - not only did they catch the fish- but they saw Jesus. Up to that moment they didn't know who He was. In our places of deepest pain and despair we will have a revelation of our Mission Impossible God.
Jesus, there are areas that I am just tired of hoping. It seems like things just get worse. I am worn out. I have done all I know to do. I want to believe you but sometimes it all just feels like hype. I want to live the life You promised, but right now I would settle for just surviving the day. Come to me in this place of my deepest pain, of hopelessness, and despair. Come as only you can come and speak Words of truth and comfort to my innermost being. I cannot make it without You. You say you are near the brokenhearted. Be near me now. Send the words of life I need to hear. Heal my heart and fill me with true hope - hope in you, Christ the hope of glory. Amen.